the words in hal and roger and in wenquxing

Hal and roger last night:
parrot, gurnard, cannibal, gorilla, wit, arrogance, blubber,howl,dangle, arouse, churn, plank, midriff, squirm, stanchion,snarl, leer

Wenquxing:
thrift, reciprocation,persevering,persevere, chastity,piety,solidarity, xenophobic,fanaticism, protestant,psychosis, choronic, javelin, chariot, pentathlon, armament,tupelo,physiological,causality,taboo, incest, blab, wreck, spin, tickle,inflict, rattlesnake, sidewinder,reprimand,acquaintance,sourly, crafty,drone, mae, gullible, charisma, ritual, twirl, stern, bruise, schooner, roar, muffle, barbed, rear, barracuda, giddy,dazzle, tentacle, shovel, anemone,pedal,minaret, fester, porcupine, urchin,convolution,polyp,trunk, stag, fern, sway, ivy, moss, hoodoo, lest, bucketful,inhale, scold, toss, serpent, forensic, pandemic, parachute,shepherd, camouflage, speculate,memoir, urge, proprietor, sole,layoff, cataclysmic,engulf, prosper,verge, moat,pulsate, thesaurus,insidious, inflection morale, guardian, inculcate, paranoia,chunk,precis, nitpick, relive

ok, finally continue

so, today's goal,
1,sleep before 2, so that mean, begin to read willard price at 1:00
2, finish chapter 2 of thinking in java
3, do one assign or two, of java
4, review the french
5,type the new word
6, make the plan of reading.(policy design, globalization)
7 , continue Athony robbins
8,financial planning
9,give reply to zhangxiaoni
10, call fengning
.................to be continued

day 6 worth living worth recording

the Power of Focus

1. How your “focus” determines what you get
2. How what you represent in your mind controls your state
3. How to use the power of quality questions to get what you really want

Focus on different things to change your state, to change the state by asking questions,

the passionate question is:
1,if I sleep early , what are the happy things I could do?
2,if Who I am going to email, and my this friend happier
3, what kind of programming thing I want to do today to make myself feel good
4, how much money I can save or invest to have everyday finicial check
5, what could I do to make myselft more passionate


hahaha ask myself

day 5

let your body make you passionate,

What Everyone Wants and How You Can Get It!

1. · What we all want-and why
2. · How to develop passion in your life
3. · How to manage your emotions
4. How to use the power of physiology

1 alway aware when i am not, rank my status
when I am passionate:
I'd love to helpfriends, talk to friends and even strangers,speak fast and a lot, walk fast ,and I like jump to reach as highest as I can.

When I am not passsionate:
I would just sit in front of the PC and wondering around, and boring, or even search in the msn
and walk slow, speak slow, try to hide myself. and dislike to talk to friends , and don't do anything

2 try to change breathe ,gesture,and other things

strench myself and breath and walk fast and talk fast
hehe
ok

continue for day 4

and the ways to break the pattern:
1, make a alarm, and get drink, and milk, make myself sleepy.
2, everyday, after dinner, it is the money time
3,every day before sleep , it is the email time
4 everyday for the programming thing, always aware of it
hehehe, it is not what tony want i guess.

If it is worthy to record?

ok, now let me continue, definitely one thing is right, that is if your life is wothy to record, write something everyday

The Science of Success Conditioning: Neuro-Associative Conditioning (NAC)

1. The three levels of responsibility necessary for lasting change
2. The three basic elements of NAC
3. How to use NAC to create massive change in your life

and then 4 things that I want to change in my life now:

everyday, at least 7 hours sleep and get up at 8:30, so that means at least I should go to sleep at 1:00
Reason: 1 Recently I get up at 10-12 as alway, I feel like I leak 2 or 3 hours out of my everyday life. If I keep on doing this, I will lose so many hours in my life , it is terrible!
2 I Couldn't enjoy the nice mood in the morning, maybe also nice weather( very small possibility)
3 Getting up late will increase my anxiety level, which I am struggling with
4 Spending not enough time make me fail in the exam, maybe

everyday, make clear of my monetary level and think about the financial plan

1 if I don't do that, everyday I don't know how much I spend and how much left, How much I can use in the future, it will jeopardize my finicial condition, and make me bankrupt hehe, in the coming 8 months, or even in the coming 10 years

everyday, spend some time on getting contact with old friends
I already give the reason for this one



everyday, spend some time on Programming
Reason: if I don't do that, I can't fulfill my second life goal, and there is no much time left for me to do that also

ok another thing I want to do is ... reply the email immediately

come on, man, why so lazy , reply your email immediately

Read everyday news for half an hour everyday

I must change it

I have to go to bed at 1:30 today, and sit in faculty at 9 tmr.

It feels terrible to sit here from 1 in the afternoon

teeeeerrrriiiibbbbllllleeee

hehe, paranoid........

so late today

Ok, it is not that easy to keep it as a everyday habit, but I am doing it, so today the topic is
"Taking Control: The First Step"

1. How your destiny is determined
2. The four elements of destiny
3. How you can condition yourself for consistent success

and the assignment today is to give the neuro-association,
Ok then , negative ones
I associate learn sth myself is more effective than learning from teacher
I associate getting money with very easy and with no pain
I associate talking to the teachers is painful
I associale chasing girls with embarrassment

Then good ones:
Reading book with fun
learning with becoming more powerful


ok that is all

Honestly it is hard

Ok, it is really hard to follow all of the target i listed yesterday, but I am trying, the problem is that it is so hard to concentrate on only one goal.

ok, in the formal note:

• The Controlling Force that Directs Your Life
• Why we do what we do
• How to harness the twin forces that drive all human behavior
• Why you sometimes sabotage yourself
• How to use your greatest "motivator

For me, the important thing is
the association of pain and pleasure the two fundamental forces of human behavior, the fear of pain and the desire for pleasure.

ok finish the assignment for today
Learn french
if i don't do it, I will lost my chance to learn it, I will feel aweful about myself, I will never know it, next time I went to france, I will still be a idiot.
if I could make it, I feel wonderful, other people think I am talented, and I will be confident about my language ability
Learn American accent
if I don't do it, I will keep this accent forever, and have not enough confidence to speak english, and it will be a drawback of my career
if I could make it , I will have nice american accent and i will be confident to say whatever i want
haha, exaggerating, and also I will feel better
Call my friend everyday
if I don't do it, I will lose contact with all the friend in china, lost my network in china, it is hard for me when i have my own busness in china. And what is more, I will feel lonely and hopeless when I am low.
If could do it , I might build a very strong network and take the advantage of this network in the future. And also I need friend to share my joy, fearness , sadness, and all the thought for the life.
Write this blog everyday
if not I could feel pointless, and meanless for what I am doing, and give up all the effort I did before
If achieved it, I will feel triumphant and self-achieved....... and everything hehe

ok then that is for today

ok, 1 st day to follow it

en.... really not easy, this morning (actually afternoon), when I really sit down and do sth, it is already 1:30, so the first thing I learn should be , get up early, man........

And I listen to the address of IBM, it seems talking about things about Internet, which I love....

and now begin to do my presentation research, I find that I realy don't like this kind of short-term goal, it break my time into parts........

ok , no more nonsense ACTION

ok say no more nonsense , start now

I accidently listen to Anthony Robbins' personal power mp3, it sounds not bad , and I decided to follow it for 30 days , to see if it is as silly as its name , or make some sense.

so today's topic is "The Key to Personal Power" , that official note is following:

1. The key to unleashing your own personal power
2. How to take action consistently
3. The Ultimate Success Formula
4. How to use role models to save time and energy

what I get from the tape is

1. Be goal-oriented, whatever you do , you should know clearly what you expect to get from it
2. Just Action
3. Notice and measure what you got from the action
4. Learn from the person that have already achieve your goal

The concrete thing that I will do from now, everyday, gradually, and consistently:

• Learn french everyday for 1 hour, (luxery) follow that "from zero..." program
• Send email to a long lost friend everyday
• learn the Ameri A program everyday
• arrange the new E words everyday
  
• Make a call to a friend everyday
• Watch a Hac record everyday
• Write this boring journal everyday of course, hehe

And today , I talked to Marijn about my thesis, very good.
and had nice gossip time with 2 of my friends
and have nice dinner with Moxi
played soccer
but read nothing about the presentation on thursday
ok, that is all for today

Goal-oriented?

Sometimes I realize that I am really not a goal-oriented guy, in the language of policy analysis, too process-oriented. It is not very good for achieving my goal of life, hehe

so I created this blog for all the boring stuff I have to do, and need to do in my everyday's life , which are related to my silly ambitions , hehe

I have a theory in fact , maybe a formula:
Happyness = achievement - ambition

My problem is that, my ambition part is too big, but I can't change it, so have to face it.....

That is why I have this blog